inkskinned:

my sad ass is the first person to make a gallows humor joke but i’m also seriously plagued by the idea that we ignore legitimate cries for help wrapped thinly in humor by just saying “same” instead of crawling out of our caverns and asking wait are you okay and what’s worse is that for every person that who was joking about that “same” there’s another who feels it deeply, who is actually relating to this cry for help, who will also be ignored when they reblog it, and so on, down the line infinitely as we make acts of desperation and vulnerability part of a romanticized culture where depression is a punchline instead of a concern….. i lie awake thinking of every person who has tagged one of my jokes with a casual “lmao me”, their faceless personalities swimming before me: are we ignoring people we could save. isnt the worst part when people ignore it, after all, when you’re standing with friends but you suddenly realize you’re apart from them, when you look down at your hands and feel unreal, untethered, like you could say “i’m going to kill myself” and their heads would tilt back to expose throats, to unravel laughter instead of no, no, stay on this earth

i haven’t slept a lot recently i’m sorry but god i hope you never relate to the sad parts of me i hope one day you wake up and nothing about me is funny